Babyhood
July 31st, 2007
Lately I’ve noticed that Avery gets scared of things now. Yesterday I went to go vacuum his room. He was in the jumperoo (I hate that word) and I turned the vacuum on to start. Before, he would just look at it with awe following it around with its little light. This time, he had this terrified look on his face and started crying hysterically. I quickly turned it off and picked him up. I though, “Oh, well maybe hes just freaked out by it being so close to him now on the ground.” I played around with it for a minute and let him touch things and then turned it on to try and start again. He immediately turned into me and started crying and squirming. It was amazing. He was scared. I noticed that now I get the same effect when the dogs suddenly bark at the door or someone walking by outside. He jumps and starts crying in fear. It was kind of a sad moment for me actually. Its like the very first chip away from naivety and innocence. I understand the utility of fear. Its sort of like pain; it seems like it would be great to not have, but it plays an important role in signaling to you something is up. Its like now he knows now that the world really isn’t a safe place and he should keep an eye out.
The "jumperoo".
July 28th, 2007
Avery is not in focus but it’s really all about the jumperoo, right? I feel much more comfortable taking good pictures with my old school Canon SLR.
